Hay, I'm relieved but at the same time, I'm frustrated kasi he loves her so much pero I still have hope..... Kung tutuusin, he knows everything that I'm feeling for him.... He's been so insensitive to everything I feel..... He knows everything but still he pretends like he doesn't know anything... What is that??!?!? Argh! Nakakainis! I'm so jealous of everything he feels for her... I don't know na! It's so hard seeing him so sad with her and he practically doesn't even care about anything about me! I hate this! He's had a crush on her for so long and I've been so receptive of every negative thing they say about him to the point na I don't know what to believe anymore... My heart or my mind... Which one of the two should I believe? My heart's saying "You love him, continue...." while my mind's saying "Forget him and move on, he doesn't care about you..." I've been asking for advice from a lot of people and they told me to forget about him and move on. Sabi pa nga nila marami pang lalaki dyan that's worth the tears I cry... They told me naman kasi na he's worth it when he says sorry and if he loves me even if it's only as a friend... And he did say sorry... He said sorry for everything... But he did say that he does love her... And I know that... It's clear to me... But that doesn't mean that I can't stop loving him... Alam kong wala na yun pero di naman ibig sabihin nun na di ako pwede makipagkaibigan sa kanya diba? Kahit na masakit, okay lang kasi masaya naman siya dahil dun e... Pero paminsan lang talaga, naiiyak lang ako dahil namumulat yung mata ko sa katotohanan... Tuwing MTAP nga e, di ko na talaga kaya! Ah! Lagi niyang tinititigan.... Di naman sa wala siyang karapatan pero alam niyo na! It's been so painful ever since the day I started loving him... but you know, it's hard to endure... But at least I'm learning how to control my feelings for the better... Most people might love him just because of his looks but to me, mas malalim pa kaysa sa doon! Mixed emotions ako ngayon... Medyo galit na medyo natutuwa na nagseselos na naiinis! It's been so hectic lately but at least there are my friends of which whom I can count on.... Everyone in I-Archimedes and the people who comforted me when I cried and the people who know how I feel.... Alexi, Therese, Nikki, Erine, Paula, Venus, Everyone!!!!! Thanks to all of you!!!!!